Wrote this sometime in early May 2011. God knows, why I wrote such stuff! Wonder, if I've lost it. Should stop searching for some stuff on me hard drive for a lot of these nonsense stuff seem to cropping up and I just seems to be blogging them! Stop it, Vinay, just effing stop it!

Lost!

The most amazing moment was when we met

The love and time I have shared with you

have all been; without regret...

In spite of our love...

I am painfully aware

That you are gone,

And no longer there..

You made up your mind and you went away..

as things started to not feel right...

I know it's pointless to wish for you to stay..

because at the end of the tunnel there is no more light

Often I don’t know what to say or do..

So many times, I have cried over you...

Emptiness and sorrow is now a part me,

Since I have to accept, that we will never be..

BUT

Memories continue to live in my heart

As I wish you well, with your brand-new start

Please, believe me when I say

You will always be with me

Come What May

Vinay

29-June-2012

1805 BST

Written out of boredom

Wrote this poem as I was blooming bored and was sitting alone in my room as usual wondering what to do next.

*******

As I take my pen I begin to think,
On the various points I could and want to ink.
There are a billion things I want to share and talk
But then I withdraw in fear of being mocked.
Maybe by some near and maybe some more dear,
But I bet these near and dear are mere.
They say, "I'm always with you,
And will stick around like glue!"
But they and I know it's not true
And this makes me more blue.
These are the same who tell I've changed and is not the same
They argue and some poor unknown gets the blame.
I then do not have the energy to fight,
All of a sudden they then see some light!
They think I'm either in love or is heart broken,
But is my heart is asleep or awoken?
Perhaps I am the only one that knows the truth
As I stand like a tree waiting for someone to pluck the fruit.
And I'm all alone with no hope
In my hand is one end of a rope.
I promised to never take the road I once took
And I also promised to never turn around and look
Today when I try to see what lies ahead of me
The future is at it's darkest hour and I cannot see.
Till then i shall do what I'm supposed to do
Until it's time for death to say BOO.....


Vinay
16.07.2012
Time: 00.05 BST